as i come down to the last couple of days before presenting this to the class i begin to if worry i have done enough. if i have cast my net far enough if i have left enough of a bread crumb trail for others to follow. i didn't link every sit to this one. i really don't think anyone would use half of the christian art websites. no one wants to link to a site that really has a "Deep Thoughts" section or "Saint News". Neither did i link to all the court transcripts of obscenity cases in through the 40's and 50's. I found myself starting to just skim them (fruitlessly) looking for direct quotes. if i was bored silly then no one else will go through all this.
i also began to veer away from the original conceptas a whole. when i started to put these images together it felt like i was drawing a mustache on a picture of the pope. it was a laugh. I never wanted to be disrespectful, but sligtly antagonistic? sure. but these images became less about them and more about me. i now prefer to use these catholic images as templates for an image of my own creation rather than trying to recreate an existing masterpeice. there are photos that are just so wonderful that i can't not try to show the world how i see them and what they mean to me. i can react to the beefcake photos and let them take me where they want to go rather than trying to force them into predetermined poses. a couple of times i had to use photos that i really didn't like but they matched poses in classical paintings. The Last Dinner Party became work because of this. The Creation of Man from the Sistine Chapel, which i have been working on for the past few days is being crushed by these restrictions. Moses, on the other hand, i had a blast with and i have another Adam that i have been playing around with that i hope to post by monday. These biblical characters are the gender role models that were imposed upon me as a child. My affinity for them is comfortable and effortless and functions outside of catholisism.