i started this blog with guns blazing. it was a laugh. i was channeling all this attention and energy into this blog and these images. then i realized that this was public domain. i felt exposed and worse i felt shame. I started to sensor myself and each blog entry became torture. this blog became a my path to recovery. I consider myself to be a fairly liberated and open-minded individual. the realization that i suddenly felt that the male body and the homosexual overtones in these images made them offensive or disrespectful left me breathless. I have gone to great lengths to make sure that these are not just parody. I can think of nothing more beautiful than the naked male body. seeing it as a vehicle for the divine is effortless. that has been my one guide as i scramble to recover from this psychological tail spin. the random collection of links, quotes and stream of consciousness rambling is my way of reconstructing in myself what i was once overly confident in. it is true, one must "come out" every day.